Life Begins Outside Your Comfort Zone

Going on a solo trip, going camping, speaking publicly, going for global exchange… are what have always been listed as my desire to experience at least once in a lifetime, but there is still a hesitation which reserves me from making that happen. My ego to do such things has always been conflicted with the inner voice of mine keeps telling me that “You cannot do it, GIRL! It's not as easy as what you thought. Your ability is still in limited.” This has somehow convinced me to step back from every starting point and block all my ways with the belief that I lack of ability to make it count. I'm afraid of making mistakes while I'm performing on the stage as a public speaker and of how people would judge me in every way. I'm afraid of going on a solo trip and getting involved with strangers. Moreover, I'm afraid that I wouldn't manage things in order if I decide to go on camping. And those excuses always get me stuck in a place which I called THE RED LINE.

Then one day, I sit back and questioned myself, "What can I do instead of just sitting here and being a fearful girl? Why is it so hard to make a move?" Everything turned to darkness and tears dropped, I thought I'm such a useless girl. Days by days, I tried to find a way out from this negative thought. One Friday night, I remembered it took everything out of me to search for every opportunity to let myself grow both mentally or physically. Eventually, I was able to encourage myself to go on camping trip with the name of solo trip. On the top of that, I decided to apply for public speaking contest, and most importantly I did apply for global exchange program which will require me to spend some time living abroad alone with a lot of strangers from diverse cultures. Believe me, It was so hard to push myself to do such things as I have always desired since I'm just one of fearful girls with negative thought.

The result that I have got after trying out those things has actually given me one of the most precious experiences I’ve ever had. I've created a lot of unforgettable memories with those strangers who I finally called friends. I felt so weird to sit in a circle with unknown people while I what I have always wanted was to escape to a place where nobody knows me. However, things turned out to be different, the decision which was originally made just because of the only expectation of a short escape has become a drive to let me manage to qualify to be a girl who is going to represent my country on international platform. I know that it may sound simple to some people, but to me, it is the proudest decision I've made so far. I know it's gonna be tough and many obstacles would come along the way of being apart from home, but who cares?

I never wish things to go smoothly since I know it is unpredictable, but I only wish myself to be stronger and braver to face with every unexpected situation.

A message to every girl out there: ''I know It's hard to make a move, but nothing is impossible, baby girls. You are the master of your life and the captain of your long journey, so why not choose to be the best version of you? Stop being fearful of any judgement you would get or any mistake you would make because mistakes only come after you are brave and dare to try to take actions. We are not born just to be educated and be secured in a room, but we do have the permission to carry the education we got to explore the world. Keep chasing after your dreams, and be who you really are! Never limit your potential and overlook your strengths just because of the weaknesses that other people see inside you."

Be confident, life begins outside your comfort zone!